my friends always knew me as a hard ass or cold, mainly because i havent cried for 3 years. i never wanted to, everytime i felt like it i would shut my eyes as tight as i could, always worked. but 3 months ago at a party i was sitting there drinking, my brother knew somthing was up so he ask me to come around the coner and he ask ''whats bothering you?''. i sat there in silence, i coulnt hold it in this time. i cried for the first time in 3 years. in the comfort of my brother i herd my friends go quiet, they knew, they witness my breakdown. i never wanted to let anyone know i was on a sinking ship. now when my friends look at me i feel like their thinking about it. i hate that it happend, ill never show any emotion again.