Everyone happy now? Well I'm not but then when has that ever mattered? Well not this time. I've held on long enough to know that it isnt going to change for me. Maybe I'm jumping the gun but things always turn out this way for me. And this time I'm not waiting for the bullet to find me. It just hurts too damn much as it pierces my fucking heart. Someone recently coined me perfectly, a coward. I love too hard but yet not enough and I instantly panic when things are confusing or scare me. So with all my fears and unanswered questions I'm putting this coward out of its misery. Alright this is the point where everyone is allowed to laugh now.