Not today

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by itmahanh, Oct 14, 2010.

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  1. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    It wasnt suppose to be today. Was looking forward to a full day by myself tomorrow. But shit happens. It always does. I'm not strong enough. Too many things in my life that I cant seem to walk away from. Like broken promises and dreams and hopes that only hurt.

    Not today... but I guess it will have to do. Sorry for the hurt and trouble.
     
  2. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Sorry things got so messed up but glad you decided to share with us...hope the latter part of the day is better and that you know how valuable you are here...J
     
  3. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    I'm not going to be around to find out.
     
  4. Axiom

    Axiom Account Closed

    Owhr stay, talk to us. It might help you make sense of this or see another possibility that you might not be able to just now. There is always a way, sometimes it's just hard to see it through all the crap, but it's there. Let us help you find it :)
     
  5. StarryNightSky

    StarryNightSky Well-Known Member

    What Blake said. I'm sorry you're having such a rough time right now. Don't give up yet.
     
  6. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    :hug::flowers: hold on c...we can't be the 3 amigos if you leave..
     
  7. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    it starts but dont want to be alone. stick around here long as i can.
     
  8. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    this is the place I come to for company/support when i need some..
    I hope it helps you too :console: :arms:
     
  9. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    cant stay makes me feel bvad about waht happening
     
  10. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    WE have to stick together C okay you can't split us up iv me you we understand each other pain so well please stay here write all you need to write but stay don' leave please C look at how many peoples lives you have touched here look 101 alone on your friends list you are care for greatly please C don't okay i know it is hard but stay just stay
     
  11. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    if i stay its wrong but go im lone. cantchange what happen
     
  12. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    always have to fel bad
     
  13. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Oh yes y ou can you go to hospital now call crisis now i mean it c i mean it you get help NOW pick up the phone NOW
     
  14. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    whats so worgn with me? why do peopel hate me? i only try to be good
     
  15. Dave_N

    Dave_N Banned Member

    Sorry you had such a rough day Carla. We all love you hun. :hug:
     
  16. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    NO ONE HATES you C only you hate you that is what the problem is here
    You hate you i know that because i do the same hate me so much
    No one else hate you we are care for you now you have to start caring for youtoo reach out go get help for you.
     
  17. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    im cold
     
  18. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Like i said c call the hospital now you know the number of crisis ambulance call now okay so i can talk to you again my friend please just do this okay call for help
     
  19. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    Do as violet says C...we love you and don't want to lose you....
    please, please, please go get help...:sad:
     
  20. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    i called. still going just slowed it down a bit and more like i planned. doing it over a span of time rather than one time cuz too easy to be saved. this way, no return no mater what. sorry last night a ilttle heavy onthe booze. then got a little ahead of my plan. sorry. my special friends that listened thansk. tonight just stick to the plan.
     
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