before you beg me to stay, to try to talk this out, before you tell me that nothing is bad enough to go to this extreme over, before you tell me I was 100% right when I said it gets better with time. Listen to me, I am SICK of riding this rollercoaster I call life! I am a danger to my 2 kids and everyone around me, I don't want to hurt them anymore and the only way their pain can be prevented is if I am out of the picture. I long to be the "good mom" and the "perfect friend" but when I try, people only get hurt! So before you begin trying to help me, consider the other people who deserve to be rid of me.