Do you ever feel like you don't want to get better? have you ever felt that you were getting better (being on medication or seeing a shrink or something) and then discontinued? i feel like that often..i don't know why. i suffer so much yet i could never handle the change, i can never see it going away yet i prevent it from happening anyway so there's even less chance of getting better. i feel like i'm weird, but like this is me..and if it goes away i'm not me anymore. i like how this makes me feel sometimes, i like my dark side and i feel it makes me different..i don't know why though, this does not seem like a good thing to think. do any of you ever feel the same?