:cry: I always lose people. Always. They start off really friendly and we can get along well, and its lovely because I have a friend, but it doesn't last and it won't last and they will go the same as the others; I will make it happen, for sure. And it makes me so sad that I am destined to be alone forever. Well, not alone, but without anything lasting. And if I were to advise myself I would probably say that it is good to have people, and to be grateful for the time you have, rather than resenting its absence when its gone. And also, possibly, that someday someone Will come who will stick around, and if they don't last, they're not supposed to. But I wouldn't believe me. And, if you say it, I won't believe you. Because even here, online, I'm letting people down and getting things wrong and ruining any good thing that I have (or, had). And I'm terrified now... because when everything here is gone... Then I will be truly in danger of giving up and giving in.