I have no profound last words I wish I did but I don’t. I am tired of fighting trying to find the answers tired trying to explain something I cant, tired of feeling this way I am. I have tried to find help the Hotlines told me to talk to a friend or a therapist I don’t have friends the therapists they cost money I don’t have, the NGOs they want to help but they are overloaded. The church they just threw the bible at me repent believe and all will be well. SF I found some who cared who listened but in the end what do I say, what can they tell me that I don’t already know what I haven’t already heard. There is nothing here left for me to do to be. Soon I will be a sleep then everything will be ok. I just wanted to say thank you good luck I am sorry ………….