Nothing but confusion

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Things, Sep 9, 2010.

  1. Things

    Things Well-Known Member

    I can't think the right thing, can't say the right thing. I have contradicting thoughts and facts, never sure on anything. I feel the need to have the "right" opinion, the right ideas, but can't form them. I always feel like I'm wrong. My mind just don't work right. My head's always hurting, I feel like my brain's going to literally explode. Sometimes it hurts to breathe. I can't talk, or else I'll say something stupid, or worse, harmful. Worst of all, nothing's changed.

    I don't think anyone can help me. I don't know why I'm posting this, to say something I guess.
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Your mind is raising all over You need to tell your doctor okay get on something to slow your brain down i am sorry this is happening to you but there are meds to help you please ask pdoc abt them okay
  3. Viro

    Viro Well-Known Member

    I don't think opinions and thoughts can ever be wrong. Facts, yes; opinions, no.
  4. Things

    Things Well-Known Member

    Sorry for not replying, I do appreciate the replies. I didn't want to respond until I can talk to a doctor, or until things get better. I don't want to sound like I'm dismissing advice or anything.

    But I still haven't seen a doctor, things still haven't gotten any better. I don't think I'm ever going to see progress...

    Edit: I didn't want to make a new board for this.

    It's been three years and my mom's still sick. As usual, no progress is made. I think she may actually be getting worse. She's been crying more and more from pain. Today, she just said that she can't live like this and that she wants to die.

    All our doctors are greedy, heartless bastards and nobody wants to help us. Either they royally fuck us over or refuse to work with her (apparently because she has abdominal pain and it's hard to prove what's wrong). Nothing ever helps. We still don't know what's wrong with her, and I truly think we never will. They don't care, they never do and never will. This is going to sound ignorant, but I fucking hate doctors. They get payed even if they don't do anything even remotely useful. This is like paying a firefighter who stands there and watches the building burn.

    What really gets to me is, she's a nurse and she's never done shit like this to any of her patients. It's like reverse karma or something. She's the best person I know. She doesn't deserve this.

    Even if by some miracle we could find a doctor that cared, I doubt they'll figure out anything. Nobody ever does.

    We can't live like this...but there's nothing to do. Suicide is out of the option for me, and I worry about my mom (I'm too terrified to ask about the things she's said).
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  5. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    It is hard to find a doctor who cares who takes time to truly listen Abdominal pain can be caused by so many reasons Being a nurse it must be so hard for her as well not finding the answers. MRI should show something ultrasound it could be irritable bowel chrones disease anything I hope they find it soon too have undiagnosed abdominal pain. sometimes a cyst on ovaries will be the cause but they come and go as well I hope your mom finds a good specialist one that listens and that cares I hope you can stay strong as having someone with her that understands and has compassion will help her too.
  6. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    I'm sorry your Mum is in so much pain and I'm not suprised by the doctors attitiude....
    they don't listen....
    has your Mum had any tests such as endoscopy? to check inside...
    I'd like to add endometriosis to the list violet gave you...being a nurse though I guess your Mum would have thought of that..
  7. Things

    Things Well-Known Member

    I asked her and we've tried all of those. The MRI, the endoscopy...she doesn't have ovaries anymore, so that can't be the problem.

    It feels like we've tried everything.
  8. mulberrypie

    mulberrypie Well-Known Member

    Hi , plates. your posts really hit home with me. i know eactly what you mean by the confusion and mixed thoughts. i was thinking it was a.d.d. or something. i got a little teary eyed when you talked about your mom. you seem as close to your mother as i am mine and know what a nightmare it is to see her suffering. my mom was sick too and drove me to coming here because i needed support. she is healthy now, so there is always hope. it's so scary, like you said, and part of you doesn't want to find out what's wrong if it is serious :(i also understand your animosity towards drs. most just see you as *just another patient*, plus medical science is so much guess work and stumbling around in the dark. it's frustrating. Maybe it's something like not too serious, like IBS, which i heard causes abdominal pain but is hard to diagnose. im pretty sure it can be managed too. anyway, i hope you guys can figure this out, find a solution, and everything turns out okay. you guys are in my thoughts x
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  9. mulberrypie

    mulberrypie Well-Known Member

    OMG i said, plates. i meant things. sorry! i get you and plates mixed up..not sure why. i guess plates are things afterall :dunno: