Ever been matched on a dating site with a guy who raped you? Very unpleasant, 0/10, would not recommend to a friend. Is this what my whole life is going to be? Running from my past? I can't handle that. I can't handle this. I'm independent, and that's good. That's who I am, but I can't have things like this happen to me and not have anyone fight my corner for me. I can fight for other people. I stand up for other rape victims all the time. I could stare a sexual abuser in the face and tell them that they're scum. I could fight to the death to make sure that nobody goes through this alone. I went through it alone. I almost broke me. It is still breaking me. I could stand up to anyone. But not to him. I can't. I just can't.