I am just starting my second year of college. I went through hell my first year with having roommates that are total assholes to dealing with my decision of not drinking. I am back at college, just started my second year, everything was looking up, I have roommates with things in common with me which is a first, switching my major, and things to look forward to. I was wrong about that. My roommates do everything so I am not included in anything. They don't want me around, they don't respect me, they don't even see me as a person. I am nothing. I went through hell last year with the same thing. I have tried four different medications for depression, none have worked. I have talked to four different psychiatrists and nothing. Nothing has even come close to making me feel better. I have been dealing with this for 9 years. I can remember back as far back as 5th grade to sitting in bed and thinking about killing myself. No 10 or 11 year old should be thinking about that, but I was. I haven't been able to hang out with my friends from high school during the summers because I have had a job since I turned 16. The last four summers I have had I have been working 6 days a week, 40+ hours a week every week up till school. I have drifted about from all of my friends. I don't really have any left. I can't find people in college to do anything with, there is no one.