I'm not sure why I'm posting this, but I guess I just need to get these feelings out. There has been a while since I posted here, I've stayed away from SF because it triggers me. I've been telling people that I'm doing much better, and I almost believed it myself. My psychiatrist thinks that I don't need therapy any more, but she doesn't know that I'm still suicidal. I think it's time for me to end it tonight. The suicidal feeling won't go away, and I'm tired of living just because I'm worried about what it'll do to my friends and family. They'll be better off without me. I'm calm now, calm and happy with this decision. Death have to wait a few hours, because I have to visit a friend first, but I'm going to start my suicide now. Goodbye SF people, you have been good to me. :hug: I'm sorry for taking up some of your time, I'm not worth it.