I'm in so much pain, and there's absolutely nothing that can be done to make it go away. I'm at the end of my rope, I finally found the part that made me whole, and I can't have her. Someone just like me can, but I'm such a worthless human being, I can't have those things. I'm not good enough. I'm broken beyond repair. It might be destroying me, but nobody really cares. My soul will be forever empty, nothing in the future that can be realistically expected can make this pain worth it.