Nothing is worth putting up with this life....I wish I could find someone that understands this, no, I mean REALLY understands this. I don't give a shit about family or other people, living my life for them, maybe that makes me a horrible person but there's not much I can do to change my feelings. Really, the situation I have right now is really bleak. I have a horrible back problem, and I work a menial labor job. And I can't go to school because my memory is extremely impaired and no doctor will take me seriously enough to investigate what's going on. I don't even want sympathy, just a viewpoint that isn't condescending or patronizing. I honestly don't see the point in going on any further. It just seems....senseless.