People do talk to me, they sometimes smile but mostly I am standing there thinking I am ok, I'm ok, I'm here. Then perhaps I am ignored, then, I get told that I'm not any good, then I get told that I am a sickly old woman who isn't in pain, I am negated, I am an idiot, I am worth nothing. I need to work more as I am not bringing in enough money. I am not giving my husband enough sex, I am not doing enough cleaning, I am not being a good mum, I am not able to show my worth at work. I am eating and drinking things that are not for me, I am not allowed them as they are for my husband and daughter. These are not in my head, this is not a paranoid voice, this is my daily life, day after day after day. I am told these things, by my daughter, my husband, my boss, my mother. I am nothing, I cease to exist now, in the flesh. I do not need anything, I have no needs, I am a human being who needs no humanity, I have become someone who no one needs.I have become nothing. I am worthless and continue to be told I am a joke. I am nothing.