this really sucks. Nothing I do seems to kill the feeling of dread, depression and misery inside me anymore. i used to be able to go for a hard run or binge on food and it would dull the pain but even that isn't working anymore. This is an every day feeling and it's getting worse. yesterday in a fit of desperation i went into my father's medicine cabinet and took some of his muscle relaxers and allergy medication to induce sleep, which worked. i felt horrible about it but i didn't know what else to do. i felt like i was going to die, that's the only way i can explain it. it just all sucks.