I feel poorly most of the time. I had open heart surgery when I was one then I had to go to school when I was five and be around more normal children who didn't understand words like that. It was very traumatic. Now I am around adults who don't understand things like that and recently I had a fight with my sister and I told her I didn't want to talk to her. My grandpa used to beat my mother and that caused her to be kind of mean and a long time ago she said she forgave it but I don't think she has completely. My mother left us children alone a lot and once my sister waved a knife in my face when I was 12. She gets her way all the time and I don't think I want to be around someone like that, but after my mother passes away, I have no one to help me. I will probably end up being homeless or in a homeless shelter. I remember reading "The Boxcar Children" where the children ran away because they thought their grandfather was mean but it turns out he was a rich nice old man and they lived happily ever after. What am I supposed to do when I am old, live behind an abandoned building and eat grass just because I have surgery issues? Who would help me move? No one. Who would help me if I ran out of money? No one, not even my siblings. I may not have to commit suicide because society would do it for me, pretty much.
