Nothing left but regret

[ducati741]

I dont know why Im writing this. Noone will read it.

I can't be bothered any more. Life sucks. I heard more revelations about my ex-girlfriend tonight. I know it;s not my business blah blah blah....but I still miss her. I hate my life.

the wounds on my arm have just healed up..Ive chickened out a couple of times now this evening, but I know im going to end up cutting my arm to feck again. strange. Im normally calm about SH and wanting to die, tonight I feel paniced(sp?) Maybe all the other times I was calm because at the back of my mind I knew I wasn't going to do it.

Maybe this panic is what it really feels like to be at the very end.
I want to die, I feel like taking the knife and putting it straight into my chest, as much as I dont want my family to be the ones to find me dead, and I havent sorted my letters/possessions etc, I just want to be dead. I cant take the hurting any more.

Im going to do it tomorrow night, after celebrating a couple of mates' birthdays, go out on a high and not feel a thing do to being horrendously drunk.

I doubt anyone will read this, but thankyou to those of you who took the time to reply/pm me, I'm sorry that your time was wasted.

sorry if this doesnt make sense, had a few bevvies this evening.

 

[Dave_N]

Please don't do this to yourself Nick. Stop cutting your arm start getting help. I'm sure you will find someone else eventually. Please talk to someone about how you are feeling. :hug:

 

[andyc68]

nothing is ever wasted.
i know how you feel, have been there but it can be overcome. yes your life may be at its lowest ebb in your eyes but trust me it isnt over yet.
recovery from this kind of hurt does take time but you need to believe in yourself, know that nothing is your fault.

be selfish and look towards doing things for yourself and your own future, yes you miss her but don't look back on what could have been, look forward to how it will be again.

suicide isnt the way for yoou, find a different path to walk.

stay safe

 

[247j]

Mate it's totally normal to miss your ex and you may feel no hope for you both now but don't end it all take it from someone who knows things can seem so so bad like you will never have a single shot in the world with your ex ever again but please believe me when I say there is always hope and don't die when there is that glimmer of hope still there

Stay strong keep plodding on and through this, through this all you will come out a better person.

I am ALWAYS here for you if you want to chat and remember mate if you want a rainbow you got to put up with the rain

Much love

:hug:

Rick

 

[faithless]

i truly hope you don't do this, it's hard now without your ex but it'll get better in time, it really will, maybe you get back together, maybe you find someone better for you even though it doesn't seem possible right now trust me it'll happen. i need to ask is there anything else going on in your life that's got you feeling suicidal? whatever it is i'll be glad to help or just listen whatever you need.

 

[SAVE_ME]

Please don't do this Nick. Trust me, I'm going through the same thing at the moment, but life can and will get better, that's what we have to keep on telling ourselves. A few months ago I was in the exact same position, cutting to no end, wanting to just end it all, but take it from somebody who knows, the pain will heal and it will get easier as each day passes. For now though, do things like spending time with friends, or just out and out spoil yourself, that always cheers me up :smile: but please don't go through with this. Chances are you will find somebody in the end, and when that time comes you'll be able to look back on all this and just laugh it off. Just know that you aren't alone here, and if you ever wanna talk feel free to drop me a line :smile:

 

[Stranger1]

Hey Nick,
You will overcome this. Right now your grieving your loss, Then you will get angry, and then there are more steps, I never got past angry but I have survived up till now.
There are going to be others just give it some time. You have been emotionally wounded and it takes time to heal. Put your ex behind you and keep looking forward. Just be carefull where you look for another significant other. My therapist said I always picked the wrong type of woman, I always went for the partiers because of the excitement. At least that is what she tells me.
Keep posting here and we will try to support you. From the posts I read you already have people trying to help you. We will try to give you what advice that we can. There are several of us who have been where you are. Take Care!~Joseph~

 

[snowraven]

Hi Nick, I'm sorry you are in so much pain but you can get through this. Let the people here help you. You are not alone. Please don't do anything that you can't come back from.:mellow: