You could have saved me.. You could have helped me.. You could have loved me.. But I know now what Ive always secretly known. I cant be saved. It was said by someone in my past, cant remeber who that: some people really do not need to be here, life will continue just fine with some of us gone. I believe I fall into this catagory. Carrying on each day deluding myself into thinking: One day it will change.. Someday someone wont use or abuse.. Wont tear apart my heart as though it was nothing.. Wont add to my lifetime of insults.. But this will never happen. Every day darker clouds close in tempting me to my true fate. When the heart and spirit are both broken the rest will follow untill theres nothing left within. But please dont judge me or others to harshly. Sometimes the best help you can give to someone is to let them go. Some souls cannot be saved (others just dont want to be). Its not one of my best pieces writing, just wanted to share it with someone.