My only child and son was sentenced to 20 years in prison. He is mentally ill. He's never kissed a girl, never went to prom, never had friends, never had a job, or any of the things young people enjoy. He's very suicidal and I know that day is coming when I get that awful phone call that he is dead. There is a part of me that is secretly hoping for this, so I can kill myself too. I have no friends to turn to. There are some things worse than death.