i have nothing left. i'm a shell. a hole. a huge hole of nothingness. me and my boyfriend broke up. i went to pick my things up a bit ago and i just ended up crying on his bed with him awkwardly stroking my back. i want to die. i want to go. i don't think anyone can change my mind. at all. obviously i'll wait about 3 days to see if i change my mind because i'm not one to make rash decisions (well i am but i feel i shouldn't be rash with this). but 3 days isn't that long. and i want to just cry and scream but i'm bone dry and cried out. i love him so much but now i don't think love exists. at all. if love exists, then this shouldn't be happening. i shouldn't feel like this. everything sucks.