I can’t fight anymore, can’t live like this anymore, I guess they win but to be honest that stopped being the point a long time ago. Everything stems from something they have done or said, so I’ll give in and they can have what they want. There is only so much a person can deal with, everybody has to have a limit. Or maybe they are right, maybe i did deserve everything although what the fuck i did to deserve some of the things that i've seen and experienced i will never understand. Seeing one friend take his life that was unfortunate, seeing a second damn its hard but eventually life has to go on, when it came to a third there was no way of avoiding thinking I may be the cause. Reliving it day after day, waking up every day expecting to see the same sights, I just can’t do it anymore, I want to remember them like other people do, oblivious to the reality I have no choice but to accept.