Hi, I go by the name Bluey as you can see I am not in danger of doing anything silly right at this time. I joined because it is something I have thought of doing in the past and sometimes still do think of doing myself in. I know the reasons why I think of ending it but am not able to do anything about them. A bit about my self. I am 36 male and have lived alone for nearly 17 years now. Am single and down work cos of a spine that's twisted up all over the place. I do get pain sometimes and always get tied faster then I should for a guy my age. Its not uncommon for me to have to go have a nap in the middle of the day or late afternoon. I get very lonely and this is the thing that most gets me down. I do struggle to get on with ppl. Most ppl I know just wont to drink and get wasted where that's not really my thing. I am on a dating sight but no replies. Its like am destined to live a live with nothing in it. No job, no loved one and no chance of ever having kids. Just each day seating in the house bord out of my head and lonely as sin. I ask is it worth it a lot. Hopefully I can get some inspiration here to move forward to a different place. metaphorically speaking Thank you for taking the time to read this.