Nothing Seems To Be Working....

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by brknsilence, Nov 17, 2015.

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  1. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    Vent all I can.... nothing

    Talking about it....nothing

    Trying to get stuff done.... frustrating....

    Playing games on my phone to help....forget it....

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    I don't even know why I'm even posting...maybe seeing if others find themselves struggling with this too.... not wanting anyone to struggle like this....it's tormenting...


    I feel so alone and hopeless.... still sad... knowing these bad feels spark the thoughts and urges and hoping, maybe, there is an answer to stop these tormenting thoughts.....


    So sad.... so very sad.... i feel like crying...
     
  2. Husky

    Husky Well-Known Member

    Hi Brknsilence, Thank you for sharing your feelings and I'm sorry you've been feeling sad. I feel you're approaching things the right way with distracting yourself by playing games, venting to release any troublesome energy, and maintaining a sense of normality by trying to go about your life.

    I don't know how long you've been experiencing such sadness but if it has just started or has intensified of late, I would also recommend taking some timeout by resting, going out to places and socialising with friends and people as well. Getting away from everything for a short time may be beneficial for the long term.

    We all feel sadness and only the degree differs. For example, about a week ago I did something which left me feeling very disheartened. So on my day off work yesterday, I dabbled in web design, went to another town to do some shopping and then cleaned the house and watched some comedies on television. Apart from cleaning the house, everything else was different and a change from the routine I've been in. Would something like this perhaps work for you?

    I'm so sorry you're feeling down at the moment and I hope you feel better soon. Please take care, and keep fighting and believing in yourself because you are worth it. Best wishes, Husky
     
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  3. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    Thanks- I been so busy and overwhelmed lately. My husband is off today and tomorrow, so I'm hoping to rest. I'll be going tomorrow to get the process going to see a therapist and dr for meds. My husband is going to watch the kids so I can get help. Just so exhausted in how I feel. Ill keep trying to rest and playing some games to get some sort of enjoyment back into my life. I been so very sad for a long time. My husband had asked me lately what my hopes and dreams are... ihad some a long time ago but I lost my hopes and dreams leaving me with nothing to hope and dream about. My husband is encouraging me to find some new ones, to start somewhere...but I don't know what...or where to even start....
     
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  4. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I am glad your hsb is so supportive of you and i know how hard it is to have that kind of sadness that takes away our dreams I do hope your doctor and therapist can help you soon
     
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  5. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    Thanks-I'm hating today. I woke up trying to be positive for everyone, but everyone here either wanted to have an attitude, throw a tantrum, complain about this or that... just whatever.... I don't even know why I got up this morning. What was the point... I just want to go back to sleep, maybe then, I wouldn't be a problem for everyone.....
     
  6. Husky

    Husky Well-Known Member

    Hi brknsilence, I'm sorry you were feeling sad earlier. How's everything now? Your hopes and dreams may be lost at the moment, but you may find them again so I wouldn't give up. It's just hard at the moment because everything seems overwhelming. Seeing the doctor, getting treatment and getting rest will help and it's great that you're so proactive about getting better. Your husband sounds like he cares about you very much and he wants you to be happy too. Distracting yourself with games and socialising is really important and you are going about things the right way. Please take care and I hope you're having a great day too. Husky
     
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  7. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    Thanks-everything is going alright. Better than before regarding everything..i got to get up soon so I can go get the process going to see someone. I'm just really tired. I hate feeling so depressed.
     
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  8. Husky

    Husky Well-Known Member

    Hi brknsilence, Thank you for your message and I'm very glad things got better for you. I hope they're ok now too. I'm also pleased that you are keen to see someone and you really want to feel happier. I really commend you for doing this and taking the steps forward to help alleviate the sadness which you're experiencing. Well done, Husky
     
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  9. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    Thanks-I went yesterday to get signed up to see someone. My appointment is in the middle of January. I have to do an evaluation. If I can't wait, I can do a walkin Tuesdays or Thursdays in the early morning to do my evaluation, but it's "first come, first served." I also need someone to watch my kids so I can do so. I think my husband is off next Tuesday so I can do it then. If not, then I'll have to wait.... I'm so exhausted. I woke up this morning and my thoughts weren't well again... I'm so drained in dealing with my problems....
     
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  10. True-Lee

    True-Lee Well-Known Member

     
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  11. True-Lee

    True-Lee Well-Known Member

    I too have felt this way lately, I do cry as well, I can not accomplish anything at all, I start cleaning my house, it needs it badly I feel tired, I can't read, it seems I have to get up an do something every time I sit down, I am having headaches, so I can't stay on line and the same with reading as well, I have no one to talk with which at times is a mixed emotion, I have all the tools to be healthy but I am not, I have to go cut and split wood, try running a chain saw with a migraine! or even just split wood,I might as well bang on my head with a hammer So No, brknsilence you are not alone. I know these feelings well, Thank You!
    I am still here as much as I can be, It seems like a trap of sorts, it is depression!
     
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  12. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    Hugs
     
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  13. Husky

    Husky Well-Known Member

    Hi brknsilence, Thank you for the update and I'm pleased you'll be able to see someone soon. It's great that your husband may be off next Tuesday and that you may have an opportunity to see someone then. I appreciate that what you're going through is very challenging at times, but you're doing a wonderful job as you are being so positive and proactive about everything. This goes a long way too when you want to get better. Take care and I hope you have a great day and night. Husky
     
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  14. Husky

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    Hi True-Lee, Thank you for your message and I have enough trouble using my chainsaw without a migraine. You mentioned you have nobody to speak with at times. I know I sometimes don't either but I find doing things I enjoy helpful. For instance, going for a walk, watching television or working in the garden. Also, would speaking with a health professional be advantageous? You may be doing this already but I find these things can be helpful. Take care and I hope you're feeling better, Husky
     
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  15. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    Thanks
     
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  16. partylpoison

    partylpoison Active Member

    Every day is a pain , and I know tomorrow will be worst. And I know that it sounds stupid to quit, but I guess if you already know how much pain you have to bear and in the end you still do not have the ace to win, it is not a foolish kind of quitting at all. Everyday are full of the thoughts about giving up, and I swear I am fighting these urges because I still have these amazing dreams. I feel like a candle running out of its wax, but as I promise, I will hold on. I know that God gives His greatest battle to His greatest soldiers.
     
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  17. Husky

    Husky Well-Known Member

    Hi brknsilence, I hope your day is going ok for you. Take care, Husky
     
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  18. Hey brknsilence, hope your day is going well!
     
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  19. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    Thanks everyone. I haven't been feeling well. I'm so drained...
     
  20. Sorry to hear you're feeling badly. Hoping for a better day for you!!
     
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