i rarely post here. i try to but when i type my feelings i feel calm enough to delete it. so im sure i dont have it as bad as many people here. but i lost someone that means a lot to me. were still friends at least, thats good.. right? i dont want to sleep, and im not looking forward to waking up. im not looking forward to anything. has anyone done a stupid thing they regret so much. how do you deal with that. sigh i just want to give up. im not looking forward to waking up let alone going through the day. sigh. thanks for reading, even though this doesnt seem that important.