well i hope the readers of this wont mind, but im just posing this for my own comfort. just the fact that someone knows whats going on in my life or how im feeling comforts me. so sorry if i seem a bit selfish right now. but yeah, ive been so bothered lately and just today i had this feeling of giving up. though i know i probably wont. but im so tired of everything. im just ranting really. but yeah.. lol alright thanks for reading.