my last and only friend told me the reason he had been ignoring me over the past 3 weeks earlier... and it was because he just didn't want to, he said he'd rather watch tv than talk to me. i've spent the last 3 weeks worried and sending him messages, asking if he was okay and if he was my friend and if i had done anything or if he died... when he told me the reason he had been ignoring me i just unleashed somit i didn't know i had in me, i got mad and also said something that means he would never want to be my friend again. i don't even know him irl, only on the internet. i'm completely friendless now, i'm pretty much housebound and haven't been out for 2 years. we spent every day talking to eachother, even if it was one sided, even if i was forcing him to do it. he was my reason to live, my best friend, someone i shared everything with, now i have nothing.