Nothing to live for

[Mike UK]

I am tired of life, I have nothing to live for. :sad:

 

[shellz]

hey mike...whats going on to make you feel like this...do you mind sharing....

 

[Mike UK]

I have no job and haven’t worked regularly since I was 17. I have been addicted to video games since I was about 14 and can’t hold down a job due to lateness/absence, I am only ever happy when I am playing games or watching Anime. I find it very hard to relate to anybody and my communication skills are almost non-existent, I have no partner, in constant debt but maybe my biggest problem is that I feel trapped in the wrong body.

I can’t carry on like this and have seriously thought of suicide for a while now, if it wasn’t for the fact I have a fear of heights I would be dead already.

 

[TheBLA]

I also love videogames, computers, watching TV to death. Its all I do and then I go to school and thats it. I have no friends, no life really as well. :sad:

 

[shellz]

well im glad that you have a fear of heights then...its okay to feel like this...just keep talking...that is all that i ask of you okay...

 

[Mike UK]

Talking is somthing I am not good at. :sad:

 

[Allo..]

None of us expect anything spectacular of you here, just talk about yourself so we can try and help you =) Believe in yourself and you can make the biggest differences in your life, take care, im always here to talk if you need someone =) x

 

[TheBLA]

I have no problem talking to people here or my phychologist, I'm just ashamed of my condition, my problem thats all. :sad: :sad: :sad:

I'm slowly but surely getting more depressed, I'm really scared. I need people to turn to in my time of need, I hope this forum can help!!!! I'm gonna leave right now, study a bit.

 

[shellz]

thats okay if your not good at it...neither am i...but you can start by just telling us what is going on...

 

[TheBLA]

I've already made a couple of threads about what bothers me, but I still feel that I haven't said enough.

Anyways, enough about me, this thread is about the topic creator right?

 

[Mike UK]

I feel isolated and lonely and no body understands me or how I feel, I have no one that I can talk to and even if I did I doubt I could talk to them I am so withdrawn. I can't keep hiding away in my fantasy world and there is no hope of things getting any better. I can’t see a point to carrying on and I feel that I may as well end it now and save myself any further upset.

 

[shellz]

i am sorry that you feel like this is your only option...i understand somewhat of what you are going through...the depression and the suicidal feelings that is...i am there right now...i just had something really horrible happen to me...anyways...i hope that you keep talking to me and the others...you have me worried now...

 

[TheBLA]

Well, I am at least one person that understands you. :biggrin:
I also live in my fantasy world of videogames, internet, anime/manga, etc. Not having friends, social life, I'm a freaking freak. :sad:
Perhaps you might be somewhat of a hikikomori, you should look it up on wikipedia.com, I know I am. Sigh.....its so hard being a freak and being inferior to everyone else. :sad:
I also feel as though I can't be saved, that I'm only gonna keep suffering. I'm having lots of trouble on whether to take my life or not.
I have to be honest with you and say that I may not be able to talk to you by PM or other methods due to me being very depressed as well, but I'll do my best to talk to you if you want okay?
I am one person that totally understands you, in fact, I'm sure my condition is worse that yours.

 

[shellz]

hey i also am obsessed with video games thank you very much...have plenty of them....

 

[tofrance]

I've been reading these threads that look alike somehow. Anyhow. I can relate to almost anyone here. Somehow it's nice to know I am not alone in this shit. I don't have a solution either. What I did is - I cut myself off from people and desperate tries to feel better and be happy and all.
One can live and not be happy. And what I live for? Nothing. I also don't want to feel better anymore. Cos it's not real. Reality is here with me. What I am and how I live. And there are no magic wands. Still I have something against suicide now though I thought about it alot. I don't know how and don't want anymore how to make my life better. But I don't want to do anything against me either anymore. Cos there's no point in it either. Did u get me?
Anyhow best from me

 

[tofrance]

I like FPS and sf movies I'm 31

 

[sosotired]

I have no job, friends, girlfriend either. My communication skills are zero because of severe social anxiety. Mike I know how you're feeling mate, just hang in there and try to achieve small goals everyday because things can change.

 

[Flatliner]

You seem to be communicating quite well so far.

Mike - Have you looked into any treatment that may help you?

 

[Darken]

Im similar, I like fantasy. Im into animation, easy listening and classical music, mmorpgs etc like you guys.