Well, I am at least one person that understands you. :biggrin:
I also live in my fantasy world of videogames, internet, anime/manga, etc. Not having friends, social life, I'm a freaking freak. :sad:
Perhaps you might be somewhat of a hikikomori, you should look it up on wikipedia.com, I know I am. Sigh.....its so hard being a freak and being inferior to everyone else. :sad:
I also feel as though I can't be saved, that I'm only gonna keep suffering. I'm having lots of trouble on whether to take my life or not.
I have to be honest with you and say that I may not be able to talk to you by PM or other methods due to me being very depressed as well, but I'll do my best to talk to you if you want okay?
I am one person that totally understands you, in fact, I'm sure my condition is worse that yours.