i have a good reason. nothing will change because i hurt too much. my life is about walking around crisis, and managing life that way. this isn't a life. nobody cares. i do not have any friends. i don't really want them. i want to kill myself, or go down the slow suicide path. at least i will feel like i'm heading towards death. i will never know why i was treated the way i was. and why that person who claims he was acting morally when he was hurting me, did what he did. i will always be alone and have always been alone.