I honestly feel like medication and therapy don't work! My medicine just makes me feel sleepy and tired, I guess I'm not happy with it because I expect them to make me feel...happy. Commercials about medicine made me think they would change my demeanor or change how I felt but I was wrong, so I'm just like wtf are they for if They don't make me happy while taking them and they don't completely stop my anxiety or depression?! Therapy makes me feel like shit whenever I go, talking about my problems don't change anything so what's the point? I'm still living my shitty life and nothing changes so how can the medicine help? Recently I talked to my doctor about the word coping and I said it sounds like a fancy way of saying you'll always hate what makes you uncomfortable but try to hate it just less enough to force yourself to do it everyday while trying not to get even more depressed . I feel like she agreed because she had no kind of counter argument. So basically that's what it's like in therapy, I ask hard hitting questions and they have no answers to them so basically, I'm fucked is what they should say! I even asked if I'm ever going to get free of mental illness and if I'll ever not need medicine and not panic because of social anxiety and I got a straight up answer of no because there's no cure! it was from a different therapist but still. I guess I was a fool to think I'd be as bright and sunny as they make it seem in the commercials when they advertise medicine. I'll always wanna kill myself and be the loser person who can't even work or drive because of social anxiety