Hi there, I'm really bad at this, writting things like this. So, I deciced that I do not want to hold on any longer. I mean, what's the point? You get hurt anyway, no matter waht you do and others do not care at all. I mean, they say they care, but they also show you the opposite. I'm giving up and I don't even know why I'm writing this. I know when I'm gonna do it and how and that part scares me a bit. Mabye I just want someone to say, don't do it, mabye I want people to care after I'm gone and make them miserable or something or just want it so badly, like an addiction. People hurt me, I hurt them, if I'm not there anymore, we would not have this problem. I got the perfect opportunity on Saturday next week. I'm really sorry to write this and I know that this is just selfish, but I just want the pain to go away. To sleep a little longer.