Nothing...

[itmahanh]

changes. Nothing ever fucking changes!! I try, I fail, and I start planning again. This isn't a life. It's just a rut that I keep getting deeper and deeper into. I just want it to all disappear and me too!

 

[SadDude87]

Your right. I always thought I could change myself. But it never happens. It never gets any better. You get to a certain point where you are who you are and that's that.

 

[Ithurtsinnc]

I could have posted this myself. And I'm probably WAY older than either of you. 23 years of therapy, massive changes to my "inner self" and lifestyle and here I am back in this place again. Alone and depressed as hell and wondering why I continue to put myself through this.

 

[titanic]

I just had a song come to me as I read your post Itmahanh, it's really quite crazy that it just popped into my head lol. :smile:

The song was 'the only way is up baby, for you and me now' don't know who sings it though, haven't heard it in years... anyone know it?

 

[lost_child]

I think it was Yazz that sang it.

itmahanh, I'm sorry your feling this way..I wish I could say it does get better but I'm unsure to be honest. the thoughts of death just don't seem to leave, attempts fail. Right now I wish I was dead, but I don't have the guts to do it anyother way. Sorry. I hope you find something to hold onto, we need you please don't hurt urself anymore.