i felt nothing. not even the familiar sting. i want to do it tonight. i have to atleast try tonight. im not disclosing anythong about how or when. i dont really know why anymore. its all beyond my depth perception now. i just know i have to end it tonight. im sorry mom,dad, everyone. im sorry you might go to wake me up at five tommorrow morning and find me in the bathroom. ill try not to make a mess. im sorry. theres nothing left for me to feel in this world. goodbye everyone.