...Maybe we've outgrown all the things that we once loved. All my friends are icy towards me. One thinks I'm an asshole. One of my friendships has just deteriorated. My soul mate (Although... I don't know if I can call her that anymore) has grown far apart from me. Taken solace in her new boyfriend. I guess I should be happy for her. But she's neglecting me, and being so unkind to me (She tells me she knows a guy in the local band Remedy, Bob. I tell her, I loved her keyboard solo, and she says "newest crush? wow your cool". What the fuck?) My friendships never stay the same. They can never stay in one fucking spot for longer than a week. I'm a failure at friendships. I'm a failure at love. This isn't supposed to happen when you're only 16. It means I'm fucked. It means I'm supposed to kill ymself.