Now I wish I did It!

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Yoda, Apr 11, 2009.

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  1. Yoda

    Yoda Member

    Ok, let me explain:

    Last year i did my military service, it was fun from time to time...but during that period of 11 months and before i started i was very suicidal and depressed. So the main reason i signed up for it was the chance to meet new people and get away from life at home.

    But i was wrong.....it didnt turn out the way i planed at all and those couple of weeks we spent in the forest was very hard for me, so i talked to the nurse and i started seeing a therapist.....told him everything and he was suprised that i had the curage to even do this.

    But now to the main problem i have....its been like 5 months since i got out of the military and ive fallen back to my life before the army and i keep thinking back at one specific moment: I was on watch alone during one very dark night and the thoughts were tough to handle......<Mod Edit - Acy - Methods> ..and i just sat there....but i didnt do anything, after a while i <Mod Edit - Acy - Methods> :unsure:

    But if i were able to go back to that moment now...<Mod Edit - Acy - Methods> :sad:

    So thats it.....

    Btw....sorry for my english
     
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  2. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    Your English was okay, so no need to apologize!!

    Are you still seeing a therapist? Sounds like you could benefit from someone to talk to.

    Things can get better. As long as you're alive, there's hope.
     
  3. tainted-angel

    tainted-angel Well-Known Member

    :console:

    Im glad you didnt <Mod Edit - methods>
     
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  4. Yoda

    Yoda Member

    No, it was free.....but now it will cost alot of money if i would continue with the therapy......
     
  5. Yoda

    Yoda Member

    Im sick of it....no one seems to care....no one takes it seriously all i hear is; "Grow up!" "Stop it, thats ridiculus!" and so on......:cry: Having serious thought of ending it......just fade away, i dont think I'll be missed:sad:
     
  6. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    It sucks that the people around you aren't taking you seriously. Obviously they don't understand that it's not something you can just get over or stop.

    I hope you don't do anything. The people on this site care, so please, keep talking to us. We'll help you as much as we can.
     
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