No one suspects that I am again about to try and take my life. I can't cope with this pain anymore. They say God doesn't give you any more than you can handel so why can't I handel this. I wasn't born to fight this and I cant fight it anymore I'm not strong enough I just want to time.Flashbacks are killing me inside. And everybody hates me anyway I wouldn't be missed. To many people want me dead and I've far to many enimies out there.