Ive weighed the financial ramifications, the emotional fall-out, my current quality of life, and the personal connections I have. The greatest hardship my death could cause is financial. Right now I am living with family and my paycheck is vital to the household. But I have some savings that could help at least for a year and pay for my funeral. I have very little emotional connections a few family members and two friends. After the initial shock I think they all will be better without me. I add nothing to their lives and I've emotionally checked out a long time ago. My quality of little is pretty shitty I have job that gets me out of bed but other than that I spend most days in bed crying. Social outings are non-existent on my life and I have no friends that would even want to spend time with me. So with all this the best decision I can make probably the best decision I've ever made is to end my life for certain this time. I need to get my finances in order than plan method carefully. I'm a waste of a life and there is no point to continue living this shitty existence. My only hope is that I don't committ suicide implusively because I am always faced with triggers.