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Hello
Im Robin, just joined here to write this message.. yeah im selfish im sorry for that. If the situation was different i would have trried to offer my advice to others here, not that it would have helped or anything, i cant do anything right.
Lately, depression has gotten to me, ive been feeling more and more depressed each day, feeling worthless, started thinking about how worthless i am, how pathetic i am, how i dont deserve to live. I just hate myself so damn much... My life is meaningless, heh, i dont even have a life anymore you could say... no friends, nothing... ofcourse, who would want to be a friend to a selfish worthless looser?
The last few weeks ive been having suicidal thoughts... thinking about ending this once and for all, i just cant go on like this anymore... i cant take it, my life is just falling apart, slowly, and so am i. I feel so empty inside, so alone, ive always felt like that, but never thought about suicide until recently...
Ive prepared everything, perfectly planned it, for about 2 months ive sat a date and time when it would happen... and thats in 40 minutes from now.
Theres nothing i want more than this, to just end everything, to stop... being me... i dont want to live like this. If this is how life is, i dont want to be part of it no more... i guess im too weak, but i admit that.
But... im starting to feel scared, what if something goes wrong, what will happen afterwards... will anyone care... i would never want to cause pain to anyone else by ending my life, i dont want anyone to care... how will this affect my family, i dont want them to care, i dont want them to be sad, i dont want to hurt them... just forget about me
40 minutes left.
I know it must sound pathetic to have planned it like this, i had to... its now or never
i cant go on like this. And if i dont do it now, it feels like i never will, and i just cant live anymore... im sorry
If anyone actually reads this, and answers it will probably be too late.
As i feel right now, im gonna go through with this... hope im not too weak, that i can atleast do this right.
Thanks for listening, just had to write this. Had to leave som message... somewhere...
Sorry
/Robin
Hello
Im Robin, just joined here to write this message.. yeah im selfish im sorry for that. If the situation was different i would have trried to offer my advice to others here, not that it would have helped or anything, i cant do anything right.
Lately, depression has gotten to me, ive been feeling more and more depressed each day, feeling worthless, started thinking about how worthless i am, how pathetic i am, how i dont deserve to live. I just hate myself so damn much... My life is meaningless, heh, i dont even have a life anymore you could say... no friends, nothing... ofcourse, who would want to be a friend to a selfish worthless looser?
The last few weeks ive been having suicidal thoughts... thinking about ending this once and for all, i just cant go on like this anymore... i cant take it, my life is just falling apart, slowly, and so am i. I feel so empty inside, so alone, ive always felt like that, but never thought about suicide until recently...
Ive prepared everything, perfectly planned it, for about 2 months ive sat a date and time when it would happen... and thats in 40 minutes from now.
Theres nothing i want more than this, to just end everything, to stop... being me... i dont want to live like this. If this is how life is, i dont want to be part of it no more... i guess im too weak, but i admit that.
But... im starting to feel scared, what if something goes wrong, what will happen afterwards... will anyone care... i would never want to cause pain to anyone else by ending my life, i dont want anyone to care... how will this affect my family, i dont want them to care, i dont want them to be sad, i dont want to hurt them... just forget about me
40 minutes left.
I know it must sound pathetic to have planned it like this, i had to... its now or never
i cant go on like this. And if i dont do it now, it feels like i never will, and i just cant live anymore... im sorry
If anyone actually reads this, and answers it will probably be too late.
As i feel right now, im gonna go through with this... hope im not too weak, that i can atleast do this right.
Thanks for listening, just had to write this. Had to leave som message... somewhere...
Sorry
/Robin