i woke up this moring and went to school only to find out that my best friend jessica killed herself last night she did an overdose im failing 3 of my classes i got in a fight at school. ive been called a killer. it shouldve been me not her she had loving parents they tried to give her everything they can. i amtempted to od this morning but eliza wouldnt let me. come home mom dosent ask how was my day or y are u cryin she starts yelling at me. 1 hr ago i cut and now im sitting in front of my laptop crying, she couldve took me with her!! how do i bring her back i want her back just last night i was telling her everything was gonna be ok and not to be scared shes not alone. im a failure i failed helping her. what made me think i could help her if i cant even help myself. it shouldve been me!!!