No matter what happens, everyone always ends with some or another reason to hate me. Anywhere, in life, on the internet, anywhere. I fit in nowhere, I am alone always. Even on this site, everything I say in chat is either ignored, or I am made out to be a horrible person because of expressing a thought that triggers something in a more important member. Don't worry hun, he's just an asshole that should kill himself anyway. Ignore what he says. Fine, why not. There is no reason for me not to, no one I know will even care beyond my mother who will not do anything but hate me until I am gone then maybe care. My absence will not even be noticed on this site which I have logged into almost every day for the past two years. Nothing but a testament to how much of a loser I am. I spend hours every day on a suicide site and on top of that every one there either ignores me or hates me. My death will either bring nothing, or mild satisfaction to everyone. So much is shown from my life experience. I am 4 months too young to buy what method would surely work. I cannot wait that long. But they say drastic times call for drastic measures, xxxx might have to do. I have to go look for something to use. Anything that might work.