faded through another day today. I don't feel terrible today, nothing tragic happened. No one used me or fucked me over. I just feel numb. I feel really lonely though. REALLY LONELY!!! I don't even know why I bother going on. I just find ways to pass the time as I fade through. No point in it all really. I find myself becoming angry with everyone. One of my friends I am forbidden to go to his house (which pisses me off) a stupid rule of my parents so I stop doing drugs. Not like its going to work really. I'm pissed because he can come over to my house but he hasn't and probably wont. Hes too busy getting fucked up, which I can't blame him, I would be with him doing the same thing if I could. My other friend is just too busy to ever spend any time with me, he is doing anything wrong though, I just am really lonely. these aren't why i feel like dying, just how I feel today. I wish I could just explode.