Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by robert82, Oct 14, 2007.

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  1. robert82

    robert82 New Member

    Does anyone just feel numb? I don't feel anything anymore. I used to want to kill myself. I actually found joy in it. Like there is some hope after death. But now, I don't find hope or joy in anything. I either feel nothing at all or just pain. Odd thing is, I don't have any real desire to do anything, that includes kill myself. It's like I just kind of go through the motions of life. I go to work, come home, eat, go to bed. Everyday I do the same thing. I do just enough to stay alive. I guess I was just wondering if anyone felt numb like I do?
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  3. Marshmallow

    Marshmallow Staff Alumni

    You say that you got through the motions of life, doing the same things over and over again? Do you have any hobbies? Why not try something different in your life? something exiting, challanging. A job where you don't do the same thing over and over again, everyday for the rest of your life? Doing the same routine is what often leds to the feeling of being numb. So why not try change your life around? :smile: :hug:
  4. Blackness

    Blackness Guest

    I live on a rollercoaster (no im not bipolar)
    sometimes im depressed or stable or numb....
    I like feeling emotion, not a care in the world, like you're high or something.
    To feel no sadness is the best...
    I dont know why people complain about numbness..
  5. robert82

    robert82 New Member

    I think I have so much anxiety, that I have lost the ability to recognize or feel other emotions. I don't like feeling sad, but I would rather feel sad sometimes and feel happiness sometimes, then feel neither any of the time.
  6. noplacetogo

    noplacetogo Well-Known Member

    i think i spent the last 8 or so years of my life in that numb state. it's only when i began opening myself up to people that i started to feel things again. are you alone robert82, or is this numbness present when you have people in your life as well?
  7. kim 13

    kim 13 Member

    i don't know if a person can feel numb because when you say that you feel numb you feel something inside.maybe you think you don't feel anything but look inside yourself and there will be the answer to your depression.
    and if you aren't happy with your ordinary life,then try to change that!i know,it's very hard to change the whole life,but you can start with little steps and sometime your llife will be better!just try it,please!
    kim 13
  8. bluefugue

    bluefugue Member

    I felt a bit numb in the recent years before I lost my job -- a vague dissatisfaction with my life, probably a mild form of depression. What I feel now is much stronger -- constant pain, fear, and anxiety. It's been five months solid of such pain and to be honest I preferred the numbness. :( I don't know how much longer I can stand it, but neither do I see any immediate end in sight.

    What is almost comical is that I must summon up more energy than before, in order to find new work or be positive for job interviews or plot out a new direction for my life, when inwardly I feel my capabilities are less than they have ever been.
  9. fromthatshow

    fromthatshow Staff Alumni

    I feel EXACTLY the same way.
    I used to read and write and wonder about death and suicide as well. Now even that I have no desire for. Just complete numbness. The best I can do is fake a smile, a laugh. But it's becoming harder by the day, and all I've been able to do is stare blankely.
  10. Marie72

    Marie72 Member

    I think being numb is my best protection mechanism against the terrible feelings I have about myself and the abuse that happened to me. I think that being numb helps me to stay alive but at the same time, it prevents me from feeling any joy. I haven't figured out a better way to deal with all of this crap without killing myself so I think it is a good thing for me right now and maybe it is for you too for the time.
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