I hate my life so much. I have just spent my lunch hour with people that I thought were my friends saying awful stuff like 'All you do is moan' 'Your always miserable' what do they fucking expect. This is why I dont talk to people and tell them how I am feeling. They never understand. If I am that awful maybe I sould just go!! It will make life better for everyone else. I just dont feel the need to go on anymore, I feel so numb.