lately it seems like I have no one to talk to about anything. when i finally let my feeling out someone always uses what I say against me and it makes the situation more unbearable. it's gotten to the point where I'd be much happier to live alone away from everyone. at least then I'd be so much happier. unfortunately the economy sucks and I cant save up money for a house so I'm stuck living where i am and dealing with the constant put downs and hearing about how much of a fuck up i really am and i should go to hell. i cant afford a therapist. i feel like i'm going insane. I'm tired of waking up and going to bed with horrible stomach pains and the urge to cry and nothing coming out. i'm tired of people telling me how neurotic i am.