Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by whoaaxxsamm, Nov 5, 2010.

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  1. whoaaxxsamm

    whoaaxxsamm Well-Known Member

    I haven't posted in a while.
    Mainly because I don't know what to say anymore.
    I'm so numb, and I'm tired of complaining.

    I don't know how much longer I can hold on.
    I keep talking about my future, but I don' think I will make it there.
    I try so hard to help others, but I can't ever help myself.
    I am so optimistic when it comes to others, but so pessimistic when it comes to myself.
    I just want everyone to stop hurting, including myself.

    I have my method, I'm just so terrified.
    I haven't told anyone, because I don't want to bother others.

    I don't want to die, I just wish I was never born.
    It feels like I have no other option.
    I'm all alone in a world overpowered by destruction.
  2. The Unforgiven

    The Unforgiven Well-Known Member

    sweetie.... we never do know how to help ourselves.. if we did, i suppose life would be perfect, innit?.. but thats what we have friends for... to bounce of each other.. hang in there.. n as always. im just a beep away.. i may not be a real person in your life.. but thats not going to stop me from being tthere for you.
    tc :hug:
  3. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Your not alone Sam we are here and you can post as many times as it take okay I hope you do tell someone anyone how sadyou are please don't fight this alone call crisis and just talk to someone for awhile i care im listening please stay safe
  4. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Hi Violet said, many of us know what you are going through and are here for do not have to be alone with these feelings and deserve to be cared for...big hugs, J
  5. StevenSiew

    StevenSiew Well-Known Member

    That's almost like what I said.

    I said "I wish I was aborted when I was a fetus."
  6. whoaaxxsamm

    whoaaxxsamm Well-Known Member

    Thank you everyone.
    I know I should talk to someone, but I don't know what to say anymore.
    It's all become some sort of repetition.
    I guess that is why I have been so quiet lately.


    That must be very difficult having such a short memory span.
    I hope that you are able to overcome the many obstacles in your life.
  7. boo

    boo Well-Known Member

    Awww Samsonite! I knew something was up, you stopped talking to me on msn. But then alot of people do that. :huh: I just thought you got mad cause i beated you at checkers...

    Last time we talked you were doing better. What happened?
  8. whoaaxxsamm

    whoaaxxsamm Well-Known Member

    Yeah, it was all your fault.
    You beat me at checkers, and broke my heart. :(

    I tried to make it seem like I was doing better, because I was tired of complaining and being a burden.
  9. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    You are not a burden you have depression we understand we do
  10. lifeisashedog

    lifeisashedog Well-Known Member

    Well, I'm here for almost 3 years now and I don't know what to say from the very beginning. I just hang out in coffee house and play "last post is teh winner" with others who don't know what to say, so we don't feel alone. Sometimes this is the best one can do. :hug:
  11. boo

    boo Well-Known Member

    You know you're not a burden Sam, never was never will. I enjoy talking to you alot. I appreciate your honesty and directness.
  12. Dave_N

    Dave_N Banned Member

    What's wrong Sam? :hug:
  13. whoaaxxsamm

    whoaaxxsamm Well-Known Member

    Thanks Boo! :)

    Dave, I think I'm just stressed out. It's nothing to worry about.
  14. MCull

    MCull New Member

    You could have taken those words right out of my mouth.
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