I have a lot of poetry, some good, most bad. I write a lot with my life, if for anything to let it out, it usually doesnt help, but now I write to leave my story and a bit of my defeated soul behind. If anyone wants more, PM me or leave a post. I dont know how long I will be here, but for today.. Numbing my Pain Darkend heart, broken mind knowing again as I say goodbye this life, this world and me again falling of the short as nothing is numbing my pain I had friends, I even had love feeling warm in her body, was always enough its gone asking now what do I do my everything is gone, everything I knew as nothing is numbing my pain my wings gone as the night came black looking around eyes gone light in lack I was at those gates, bright as can be I knew finally this was heaven I see could it be I had numbed the pain?.. But it was a trick brought upon me it was wrong, that thing I thought could be how could something like me be here with all my sins brought to bear as nothing is numbing my pain I cock the gun looking in the chamber something so small, this something my savior free me, release my trapped soul let me feel something...something I have not known as nothing is numbimg my pain A bit of time away from this pain please..god..take anything, please take it away free me from this curse, this burden of ache if not for me, then for your other childrens sake as nothing is numbing my pain I destroy and I kill their minds all along telling me they are fine but gone is their love and my heart here is my end, gone from the start as I know how to numb my pain Leave this plane, take the final bow no more decisons not even how for I told you my method of choice I scream it with my defeated voice as nothing is numbing my pain This body this soiled mind these thoughts no longer needed to hide when Im gone, my plague dies too And maybe they will know, I did this for you as nothing is numbing my pain Infect you it wont, this it cant be Leave me now, for I know this you dont want to see as I placed the barrel to my head I close my eyes finally at my end as maybe this will numb my pain..