Don't know if anyone remembers me, I was here some time ago with seemingly irrational problems. Well I've got some more of them, heh. Good news is I think I've gotten over my suicidal feelings (or urges rather). Lately I've been actually doing a bit better in life, that is until today. I've again foolishly trusted my girlfriend and found out she's been lying to me the whole time. God I can't believe I let myself trust her even after she repeatedly broke my trust before. Please don't just tell me I need to leave her I'm afraid it just isn't that simple. I really feel stuck in this awful nightmare, I'm just completely numb inside right now. Once again I'm in this hellish pit of despair while it seems everyone else around me are doing great. Seeing all your close friends move on without you is something that I didn't want to experience again, still that's the way it is now. I guess I'm not making much sense here, I don't even have the ability to explain this situation to anyone else.