i recently started hurting myself. i hit my knuckle to my text book and the pain i shudda felt was a pleasurable and stinging sensation. i also took my school id and scrapped my skin with it. it felt almost as good as an orgasm. my skin wasn't bleeding but it looked bloody...that's only temping me to commit suicide if those minor things felt so damn good.........suicide(in my state of mind) would be like 1 million times better than an orgasm............ am i insane??????