Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Sad Rabbit, Aug 22, 2009.

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  1. Sad Rabbit

    Sad Rabbit Account Closed

    I now stand on a precipice and stare down into oblivion,
    A perpetual bottomless chasm of despair.
    A dark pit of nothingness.
    A place without pain, without hurt, without hopelessness.

    I am only one person out of endless millions
    A tiny voice screaming without a sound
    There will be nothing on this Earth for others to see that I was once here
    A life driven to futility, a life isolated, a life forgotten
    A life wasted.
    There will be no tears shed by anyone
    There will be no sorrow felt by anyone

    Now there is nothing left to do
    Fate has decreed that this is how I am supposed to live
    A life of pain, a life of tears.
    And there is nothing I can do to stop it

    Soon, it will be over.
    Soon, I will be forgotten.
    Soon, this world will be a better place.
  2. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    You wouldn't be forgotten, and the world would not be a better place without you.

    You're not just a tiny voice. You're being heard. Please keep talking, keep reaching out.
  3. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    Graham, your tiny voice is among so many others. You need to let our voices join with yours so they can all be heard. Hun dont give up. You've got help and support here. For each one of us that let the depression and thoughts of suicide win, we silence a voice that is riddled with pain. Soon all the voices will be gone if we dont try and reach out to those that care and want to help. The world will not be a better place if you leave. It will be a much lonelier one.
  4. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Hey i am so sorry your depression is so deep. I am glad you are able to write out your feelings with words. Your poetry says so much about how most of us feel when our minds are clouded and we can't see any light. Just know we care about you and that you are not alone. You would be greatly missed here by all of your friends I hope you can talk to your therapist doctor to help you gain some ground on this depression Maybe a change in medication is due Just keep talking to us okay we are great sounding boards and we want to help. Take care keep fighting okay because you are a fighter
  5. Rose24

    Rose24 Chat & Forum Buddy

    Graham you will never be forgotten and you are not alone or unheard. I cried a little when I read this. This is how I feel most of the time. I’m always in chat if you need to talk :hug:
  6. yursomedicated

    yursomedicated Chat & Forum Buddy

    I agree with Rose completely.

    I always wonder who will remember me, who would come to my funeral, who would make braceletes and dog tags for me..
  7. Sad Rabbit

    Sad Rabbit Account Closed

    I have never asked much out of life.
    I have never demanded anything.
    I have only wished to be given a small piece of happiness, if only for a brief time.

    I wished for one moment that life would be good.
    I wished for one moment that I would awake and feel a little contentment
    I wished for one moment that the worries of the world would lift from me
    That this veil of darkness would dissapate and I would see the light of day
    I wished for one moment these tears would stop
    That the pain would subside
    I wished for one moment, people would see me and come to me.
    That the solitude and hurt would end

    And in that moment, I could bask in the dawn of a new day and I could step beyond the veil and not feel its weight crushing me.
    I wished for a moment, this would end. The burning anger, the festering hatred eating me away.

    But I look back over my life and see only darkness.
    The years passing, the insanity growing....
    ...and with it the increasing urge to tear it away from me.
  8. Polar

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    Hi Sad Rabbit,

    Again, I must compliment you on your writing. You are very talented!

    About tears not being shed, there would be many tears if you left particularly from all the people on here who think so highly of you.

    You were there for me at my lowest and your words really made me feel better. There will be happiness. I know it's hard to believe but it will happen and probably happen when you least expect it.

    Please take care and remember you are a very important person to us and I'm sure so many other people in your life.

    Kind regards,

  9. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    I can't add much to what Polar has already said, but I just wanted you to know that there are people here who care about you.
  10. Sad Rabbit

    Sad Rabbit Account Closed

    Why am I such a bad person?
    What have I done anything wrong to deserve this?
    There must be a reason why I am being treated like this.
    There must be a reason why every day I think about ending it all.
    Why I am isolated, segregated and apart from other people?
    Maybe I have said something,
    Maybe I have done something,
    Sometimes I even cry myself to sleep trying to find the answer.

    Perhaps this is the way I am supposed to live.
    Perhaps I have been born into a tortured existence.
    Of pain, of sorrow…

    Maybe there is a reason.

    I just want to be remembered for the fact I did not ask for this,
    I did not want to hurt people, the way people have hurt me.
    I did not want to be cut off from everyone, the way people have isolated me.

    I just ask for one thing…

    Remember me.
  11. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    You're not a bad person at all. I don't know if it's people in your personal life that are isolating you, or people on here. But please keep talking. You're worth helping, and you can get through this. Please don't give up.
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