i dont know whats wong with me. I spend days watching tragic videos either by man or by nature. I'm fixated on it. I can't stop. Like someone that can't stop watching porn. The stuff I watch is heartbreaking, scary. If I don't watch it i feel like i cant get informed enough and I guess that makes me feel out of control in some odd way I can't explain. ones about 9/11, tsunamis, huge earthquakes, Holocaust. Mass shooting, bombings. I almost to feel like I was there. Even though it puts the fear of death in me, I still continue watching it.