I used to think I was a mentally strong person. I mean I know I'm not crazy but still... I'm just so fascinated with death. I've had suicidal thoughts since I was 14, 18 now. A little before I turned 18 my thoughts of dying has changed into a weird obsession. Writing suicide notes often, thinking how I'll do it, where and why. What will people think and their reactions. It's sick. I guess this is how a lot of people ease into killing themselves, learning to accept it. So what do you think?